This is exactly why I don’t chase girls, eh..
God is first. I’m holding onto my hope and trust in God tighter than ever in my life. I’m sorry I got spooked the last time we saw each other but I’m taking your lead and putting my pursuit of Him first for now on.
Last night after I got home from worship, I typed up a post saying I was on my knees begging for forgiveness.
Not all mornings go as planned. Sometimes I do get impatient and express vile expletives that I feel better describe the turmoil in my brain at the moment but just remembering Him really leaves the biggest smile on my face and removes the choking feeling I feel. I dry my eyes on my own because it’s the least I can do.
Being positive is a powerful tactic. Letting go of all mistakes and missteps becomes so much easier when you trust someone’s got you.
God’s timing is just right. The only level playing field I need is an understanding that what I’m working for, a spreading of the Word and testimony powerful enough to reach the masses is all I need.
Needs. I need love. I need forgiveness. I need Jesus Christ. I need trust, openness and receptivity to function at my best but hey not everyone is going to wait for me to adjust to everything coming at me as swimmingly as a duck all at once.
Embrace it. My calmness waking up on this morning. The third or fourth Friday since last month.
I explained and introduced yesterday to a mentor that these days rappers cite God just like I see him, able to take all my worries, battles and headaches upon Himself.
Brushing my shoulders off is the least I can do I’m thinking.
Today’s going to be great. Thanks for listening.