Draft on 11/27/22
Smiling while drafting is newer to me. Thanks for your patience. Collectively, WE are on a whole new playing field. We will no longer take opposition “sitting down!”
Disapproving takes, opposition and hesitancy even kills forward momentum, forward leans and your own head game. Trust yourself and your own likings. Do not let self-doubt ruin ascending progress and stats. If part B of “the plan” is where sweetness arrives, bliss is surrendered to and all parties get what they’ve always dreamt of, stick to “the plan” and follow through!
In my experience, following through on “the plan” usually would have concluded with me breaking free of my self-doubting tendencies and cycles, charming to earn trust, communicating openly and advocating for myself enough to find myself walking down the aisle (in my walker) with my beautiful bride beside me. That GOAL has been top tier since I can remember when.
Confrontation there has been a bee sting time and time again. I want to embrace the wind. I want to be carried. I want to feel safe being cared for. Intentional vulnerability is not a bad word! I’m fine admitting the heights of mountains being leaped in a hurry would be checked off my list daily if I could see myself being caught after falling.
I care for people. Until now, that’s been something I’ve hesitated saying out loud. I care too much. I have indeed included disclaimers more than once trying to shield myself from unwarranted banter. It’s forced me to methodically change the color of my working models eyes to avoid heat. Call me Michael. Too bad the ones I’d like to reach can hardly be addressed without using aliases, let alone poetic surrender, a hand to hold and a ring of gold.
